Monday, June 20, 2011
Is it really possible that he is so scared of the next steps in our relationship that he is going to push me?
completely out of his life?? Is he really going to let that happen? My boyfriend has always told me about his fears of taking the next steps. He says that he knows that he wants that with me and he says that he does see those things happening with me one day. However he recently took a job out of town two hours away. He said we will have to see me on the weekends and when we got married then my daughter and I will have to move there where he is. Then I agreed and now he is pushing me away even more. I am being as loving and as supportive as I can for him because I love him so much. He is ignoring my calls and pushing me away so bad. On email he finally responded by saying that he is going through personal issues and trying to work through them. He says that he knows I dont deserve it but and if I need to move on he understands but he is trying to deal with everything and he is sorry. I have done absolutely nothing wrong to him. I love him so very much. I am so very good to him and I have sat here for two months and tried to just wait for any kind of communication from him. Three weeks ago he sat on my couch and cried to me and said that he wished he could tell me when he would be ready for the next steps with me but he cant tell me why and he cant tell me why he cant tell me why. I told him I am not in a huge rush but that we needed to work towards our future together and he needs to want it just as bad as I do and work towards that goal. I just dont know because it is like nothing I do is good enough. Is it possible that he lets his fears get the best of him and he loses us and all the love we have together? I would do anything to make it right. Nothing is working.
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