I feel so stupid and idiotic right now. Here`s the thing …?

First of all, stop being so hard on yourself!! You are going to make something of yourself and you should. As far as he goes, he is probably the "captain save a hoe" type, and I'm not saying you are a hoe, its just a figure of speach. So I say go with it, he will probably make you a wonderful mate!! :) Good luck